kmmorell

For all those messaging me. I'm fine. Thank you for all those comments and kind words. I've been on this site for 1 year and more. I first started off looking for patterns. Then started making BB friends on chat and through forums. I've learned a lot this past year. I've dealt with a lot. I used to have a HUGE bio, just talking about mental health. It's all taken down because I'm not allowed to share my thoughts apparently. Someone told me I'm not important, and that I should just stop. I know my worth, I know I'm important, People rely on me, whether its direct, or over the internet. and the internet.... It's the internet. Nothing is private, nothing is deleted. The internet is a whole different dimension when it comes to social life and I think it's how you go about it. You can be fake, You can pretend. You can troll. You can be rude. Be mean. Be demeaning. Choose to spread some good in the world. Know your worth. Be aware you have an impact, but you have to choose good, or bad. I can't stop anyone from doing anything. I have no power over the internet. You have the choice to spread some love in the world, it needs more of it. Tell your friends how much they mean to you. How much your parents mean to you. Open the door for someone. Listen to someone.

They say, "sticks and stones will break my bones" hmph. sticks and stones scar the skin, but I think the mental scars, the words that run through your head at night reliving the worst comments, are worse. The words that circle through your mind, are probably similar to someone elses. Why are we pointing out other people's flaws when we have our own? Why are we laughing at someone else struggles as if there's aren't significant???

I feel like a lot of problems we have in these last years is social media, and the internet. the internet has created a "standard" where we have to rise to it... or as i like to phrase it... lower our standards to fit society's norms. Why are we lowering our self worth, our mental health just to have a skinny waist? the perfect body, the perfect life, the perfect S/O? Not enough of the internet is real. Genuine. People can lie and deceive, and manipulate. Be real. choose to be real. Real is NOT perfect. It's fine to have problems. It's fine to cry. It's okay. You are no different than another person. People that seem so put together, they might not be? we can't assume... we shouldn't judge. Yes. judgment is a key essential point to life and making decisions. But ask yourself what you are judging on? is it really important? is it putting other people down?

with all the bad talk in life. Lots of people hide behind a screen knowing they won't have any consequences. Knowing they have no repercussions and don't see the effect they had on other people. Why is most of it happening behind screens? because they are cowards. If you aren't willing to tell me it to my face, don't say it at all. You don't know me. I know my worth and you can't tell me anything different.

Even though I can't control the internet, other people, or their emotions, I feel like some things can be said, and shouldn't be said on the internet. I loved this site, But i just don't know about it anymore. I feel like chat isn't being monitored, and it takes forever when a forum topic is reported for it to be taken down. and by the time it is taken down, people are already hurt, same with chat. I love all the mods on here. They have a lot to do and many are regular people out in the world, They have jobs, and lives. I respect them and I can see how there's a lot going on.

You have worth, you don't need validation from a toxic friend who is trying to change you, a person who is manipulating you and using you, who disregards what you have to say. Your opinion matters, you matter. you have a voice, you are allowed to use it. You don't need to pretend to be okay. Sometimes things aren't okay, and that's okay.

I'm probably going to take a longer break from BB. Sad that it had to come to these terms.